I now know what it means to be “used by God” for something. One year ago I gave my life to Christ and started my spiritual growth journey. My path so far has been like the stock market; ups and downs, but trending upward over time. Lately, I am experiencing an upward spike in my spiritual investments.
God has worked a miracle in my life and it was only possible because I made myself vulnerable. I literally had to tell him “Lord, I give this huge mess I’ve made to you.” My walk was completely dependent on me, but I was NOT alone. I had the help of others who were in my shoes once before. They sacrificed their time to listen to me and counsel me. They’ve helped me keep a straight path and have taught me how to be a woman of God.
As time has passed, I’ve grown as a woman, a wife & a mother. I’ve surrounded myself with wonderful people, served at church, prioritized my life according to scripture, and have become a person I never knew I could be. I’ve realized that with God’s miracle anything I’ve ever dreamed of is possible! Without that, His future blessings would have simply passed me by.
Now I’m here. I often pray for God to put the right words in my mouth. It solely is based on the work God has already done in me. He has used me to impact others and it was only because I was available for God to do a work in me.
I can tell you that there are days I don’t read my bible. In fact, there are many days that I don’t. I think this is a battle everyone fights. It doesn’t mean God won’t use you. In my case, I needed to live my new life while progressing steadily in my faith until he called on my testimony to help out someone else. I hope that one day you can experience the pure joy of being used by God. It’s such a indescribable feeling!! xoxo -Mar